Like Peach in "Finding Nemo", I try to focus on finding a "happy place" in my daily life.
Usually it is a matter of attitude, and easily attained.
Sometimes though it is a matter of needing to make drastic change after agonizing, drawn out misery and painful decisions.
My situation was the latter. After sixteen months of the most incredible work stress I have ever experienced, I resigned and walked out to freedom yesterday.
Right out the door, never to return.
My spirit, mind, and body just could not take it anymore and I had done all I could do to fight the situation as an employee. It had to be over and so it was.
Now I will deliver flowers for the next two weeks and see what is next for me.
I am sad, but elated. Exhausted, but energized. Scared, but optimistic.
Today I woke up to a new world, full of possibility.
It was a strange, sweet feeling.
I am celebrating and looking forward to the best Christmas ever. A rebirth of how I spend my time bringing in kibble money and caring for those I hold most dear.
Oh how a celebratory scooter ride would be awesome today! It's cold (30s), damp, cloudy, and kind of all gray looking out there. We'll see.
Maybe tomorrow the sun will burst forth and the birds will sing!
Oh, wait, metaphorically that has already happened!
In the meantime, I have found a Happy Place after a long time of unhappy.
And I am so HAPPY!
Go Deb, Go! I'm as close to feeling as you felt as I've ever been, definitely not a place I've been before. So happy you made the break and now are seeing a brighter horizon.
ReplyDeleteI've never been through quite as difficult a time with no resolution except to walk. It's a tad scarey, but exciting too.
DeleteGood luck with your situation!
I am proud. It took guts to quit your job, and it sounds like it was the greater good.
ReplyDeleteI can tell how relieved you are just from your post.
Congrats on being liberated.
Interestingly I am in a bit of a sad bereavement mode right now. but trying to sweat it all out with physical labor. It's helping...
DeleteNothing more soul-destroying than a high-stress job with no obvious solution. A tough call, but it sounds like the right one for you. Good luck with your new future.
ReplyDeleteOne of the hardest work-related decisions I've ever had to make. Soul destroying is right. No one should put up with that.
DeleteThank you for your good wishes!
Sometimes you have to take two steps back to take a step forward.
ReplyDeleteAin't it the truth! :=)
DeleteHighs and lows. Lows and highs. I hope this is a smooth change for you and into something...what's the word...peaceful. When many things all fit together, it's a calm and a peace that runs through your veins. I wish that for you.
ReplyDeleteThat's all I want: calm and peace. I am not too picky about a way to bring in money as long as it is a good "life/work balance" and does not consume my soul and health. My "needs" are very simple, so I don't need a big income to be happy. I think you "get" that too. Thanks!
DeleteThis was a very brave decision, Deb. I have done such in the past, too out of similar reasons, and it felt exactly as you described it. Good luck and Happy Holidays.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Sonja! I am surely enjoying my flower gig and just cruising the Christmas lights.
DeleteRefreshing way to "be".
You are an inspiration!
ReplyDeleteWell, more people should strive for what they really want in a job and move on when it's not happening anymore.
DeleteTime is short, life is not to be wasted...thanks for the kind words!
Deb, I'm glad your happy. That's the most important thing, the rest will fall into place. Xo
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