These days I am literally surviving on "flower power". I have remained on with the floral delivery company and have been more or less assimilated into the delivery crew.
It just sort of happened after I expressed an interest in doing this sort of work all the time and then two other drivers had health issues and I am helping take up the slack on their routes. Next month I will also help out with a courier route 3 days a week, which will increase my earnings slightly.
I have come to accept that I will never go back to working in health care again. At least not in the role I'd been in for over 25 years. It came to be such a "soul sucking" existence that the very thought of doing it anymore leaves me feeling spiritually crushed.
I have loved doing floral delivery since I took it up seasonally in 2012, and so that is what I'd like to do for now. I am not sure where this is going, if there is a place for me longer term with this company or another, but for now I am happier than I have been in years.
I've tried to bring my camera along on these excursions, but have been too busy to even stop and shoot photos for this blog. So I have nothing new to show of that nature.
I am enjoying this new life immensely, though we live "poor as Job's turkey" and from week to week, trying to keep the bills covered. But it will be all right. I know it was meant for me to leave that job and that way of life and embrace this one.
It is a new beginning, an uncertain future, but exciting and refreshing. I am usually a big "planner", but I have come to embrace a new way of being and that is taking it one day at a time, on faith, and with trust in God that I am heading in the right direction.
It's gotta be...I feel such an inner peace, so much better physically and spiritually, and so excited about a future doing just what I am doing and who knows what else.
It must be the "power of the flower"! I can account for it in no other way...
To be surrounded by those beautiful bright colors and smells day after day must be a balm for your soul.
ReplyDeleteI am glad they have work to keep you going so you can continue with what makes you happy.
It has been replenishing for my soul and I am grateful for every day that I get to do it.
DeleteI get up everyday, eager to get going! Even the cold weather is tolerable, though spring is coming.
Thank you!
Good for you! We don't realize how stressful a job or work can be until something changes in our lives and we look back at how miserable we were. Sometimes money costs too much. Do what you enjoy, then everything else will fall into place.
ReplyDeleteI lost my job just over two years ago and it was the best thing that could've happened to me. I was at a job I hated and it showed in every aspect of my life, I am so much happier now slowing down and stopping to smell the flowers, so to speak.
I like your line, "Sometimes money costs too much". That is exactly it!
DeleteGlad you also made the right choice for you.
Somehow I have a crazy, casual confidence in this process this time.
Ya, and those flowers DO smell good! LOL
At a certain point in our lives we have to let ourselves love what we do- even if all the other pieces of the puzzle don't seem to fit as we like. It's time to let yourself gobble up all the prettiness and happy faces you meet, and take the money. The more you drive around your city the more comfortable you get with it and your anxiety will drift away. At least that's what can happen and I hope will happen for you.
ReplyDeleteYou are still in the business of caring and giving. This time it comes in the form of flowers.
I loved your comments and they are so true in my case.
DeleteI wish I'd had the boldness two years ago, but "timing is everything", as they say.
I have an email I'd like to forward to you if you'd care to email me. It is about the family-owned landscaping business in southern Ohio. Worth a "look see" if you have any interest. Set in a beautiful, inexpensive rural area an hour outside Cincinnati. They are actively hiring. Steve is a great guy and so is his wife. Very creative people who moved to rural Ohio from Philadelphia and started this business which is thriving. Please contact me if you have an interest. Seasonal and year round positions opening up right now.
Often where we need be finds us, just sneaks up and surprises us. Funny how it works.
ReplyDeleteMay enough of the pieces fall together for you to be not only happy but at ease.
Thank you for your kind words, Keith. :=)
DeleteI've got the "happy"...working on the "ease" part! LOL
Deb,
ReplyDeleteYour determination will carry you through. Healthcare is a tough business and it is soul sucking. I wish I could work the motorcycle gig into a full time job, because I would love that, but it's part-time. But I'm still happy that I can do even a little bit.
Ironically the worst part was never the clients/patients! Always "the system" and "management", as they liked to call themselves.
DeleteI am so happy that you are loving your new moto gig as well!